Forgiving and Forgetting My Family

Here is how I found the strength within myself from God to forgive and forget my family.

My adoptive family idolized money and built a house of lies to dangle objects in front of their loved ones. The greediness and self-centered nature of my family has ripped us apart. I was forced to leave my beloved sister who rather sit in pain because one has more money than me. I am just a low human being who happened to be forgiven by God and I see the true demons that exist within my family. I was willing to give up everything I worked so hard for to prove to the Lord and my family I truly had changed. The moment the Lord gave me the strength my lust and love for distasteful sins such as adultery or not giving 100% effort to my partner. For I would not be here without my fiance.

I have struggled with depression my entire life since the age of 6 and recently saved up enough money to get tested for ADHD and as it turns out I have it very badly. But I was already in law school before I was tested, therefore I had to learn how to make myself study.

I am currently studying law at Cumberland School of Law and I graduated from the University of Georgia. My guardians were never satisfied with what I did to make them proud. I studied and pushed myself to the limit for someone else and then I realized I should be doing it for myself to improve my mental health. My guardians did not believe in having emotions as they never had a sincere moment of love with me. I can only remember the horrors they made me experience. From the constant anxiety of being on edge because my uncle would always find something to make my life miserable with. My guardian/uncle called himself my sponsor, not my father or anything. I was dehumanized and subjected to horrors that no child deserves to see.

I talk a lot about the misery of my life, but God gave me the strength and love to forgive those who have done me wrong. I hope everyone has a blessed day and make sure to lean fully into Jesus’ love for you will never know what true love is unless you dedicate your entire life to Him.

The time at which I am finishing this blog post is 6:11…which means Ephesians 6:11 – “Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes”